It’s weird. At the same time that 2017 was a life-changing year for us, I’m also glad to see it go. Does that happen as you get older?
We had highs and lows.
I started a new job just days before the beginning of last year (hello, best career decision ever). Russell turned 2. We became foster parents and welcomed five children into our home over the course of five months. One was a baby we took home from the hospital two days after his birth. My love for him grew with every passing minute, and I spent 184 days of 2017 afraid he wouldn’t be there the next day (good news…he’s still here!).
For several years, I’ve chosen a word to focus on for 365 days. For me, it’s better than a resolution because it comes with less obligation. Last year, my word was POSITIVITY.
And to be completely honest, I think I did well. Of course, there were moments when being positive wasn’t easy. But I learned to find the good in nearly every situation. That’s more than I could say at the beginning of 2017.
This year, my word chose me.
On New Year’s Eve, I closed my eyes and thought about what I wanted to see in 2018. Career success? A finished draft of my novel? More time for hobbies? Better organization? Opportunities to read? Opportunities to write? Family growth? More quality time with my children?
Just thinking about all the plates I must keep spinning made my heart race. How could I focus on one word if I can’t even focus on one task?
That’s when the word hit me:
I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that I’m addicted to “do-ing.” I must be doing something, I don’t say no, and I certainly have a habit of taking on more than I can chew.
This year, my goal is to focus on whatever’s on my plate at the moment. No more doing one thing, but thinking about another. Gone are the days of trying to multi-task everything at once. Instead, I’m going to focus. Be 100% in the moment with everything I’m doing, whether it’s the dishes or an important project.
And when I get anxious, I’ll take a breath and focus again. Focus on the moment, the goal, the NOW. Because, there’s no better place than where we are right now.